i think this brings to mind the good ole "im i talented?" question.
trying your hand at many things and still you cant find what flows easily/effortlessly/creatively that you enjoy doing and when you try trying again you fall hard? for me soccer was my bane. love it so much yet, i messed up my shoulder, broke an ankle, fractured a femur trying to do what i like and hopefully get better at. in the end, its up to you to either accept some humans have limitations and some can bore a hole in it and soar high and even some teleport to the other side of limitations. we're all different yet, the same.