I'm happy you found a good career in security. I understand what you mean, having said so, it's really hard to find a different life path different from the one I use to want to have because I feel really lost (and I become completely insecure) whenever I think about it.
This is something I must research and "decide" by myself, but needless to say, it's hard.
Thanks for replying and for sharing your personally story :)
I visited a psychologist recently, she told me that because I didn't exhibit many symptoms when I was younger I probably do not.
The loosing things around and lack of situational awarness is something that doesn't resonate with me at all. I'm more of a massive procrastinator, though.
So I do not know.
Thanks for the link, it was really interesting to read other people's experiences!
I've recently been to a psychologist, so yeah, about the suicidal part.
I understand what you mean, but it's just so hard for me to keep up with other people. I am just awkward and I do not know how to interact with them. I literally have a relationship maintenance problem, in a way :D
>In the end,I think you'll do fine in general. I don't know if STEM or compsci is for you based on what you mentioned but my advice is to at least persistently pursue your dreams. I would also highly recommend investing in relationships with people(personal,academic and professional) life is too hard on your own.
Indeed. Thanks a lot for replying and for the encouraging message:)
>. I would have be Einstein or he would have been second Me. :))
This made me laugh :D
>Practical advice: Start from the beginning. Find a math book for school and start again. Page after page. If stuck, find another book of the same category... and so on.. I used to read about 40 (no joke) books on linear algebra before my first undersanding kicked in. (mind you 90% of those were abandoned in their first 1/5 text, cause I just stopped understanding the material (it got too complex). Of those 40 books only once I was able to finish a book with complete understanding. (it was the last of the bunch :)
Oh, wow, that's a hell of a lot of books. I'll look into it for sure. After reading or quasi-reading all of those books, did they change the way you thought?