Feeling anxious and depressed for no discernible reason is the definition of clinical depression/anxiety. Please understand that, just as if you had a foot cut off and was bleeding profusely, you are acutely sick. Hence you need professional help. Nothing shameful about that, just like there's no shame in asking for a doctor to put your broken leg back together.
You would be surprised how common this is, even among "successful" valley founders.
Except - your statements might be well meaning, but they are a) inflammatory b) poorly formulated and c) not backed by any kind of evidence. You keep referring to programming, but the equivalent of your argument is "oh well, Big data will win because my cousin frank used a spreadsheet to make a million bucks"
Also wanted to let you know: Brian - people around you, that you talk to a lot think you're a flake. Because you are. Please stop reading the fringe websites you do. Please start believing that scientific consensus means that - consensus. Smart people fight every day to move it forward (that's how they get tenure/paid).
Interesting and well thought out point. Would you mind telling us more about your healthy eating and yoga and programming? Would you mind for even half a minute stop and think about the fact that just because you eat healthy and do yoga and failed at math (sorry - are a programmer) does not actually make you an expert any more than the fact that me knowing you've never recompiled a Linux kernel means I am a clearvoyiant in terms of computing compared to you?
Oh wait, did I have a point? Seems to you this doesn't matter.
You would be surprised how common this is, even among "successful" valley founders.
Good luck. Get help today.