I understand. Sounds like you might be missing a greater purpose. When possessed by the sense of a long range mission, the slow and steady burn of quiet conviction sustains us through the inevitable lulls and frustration.
Experiment with reducing stimulation. Learn mindfulness meditation, which is proven to lessen anxiety. Take some walks in the mountains or nature. Climb trees. I remember when I recently re-discovered pleasure in the simplest things, like the sound of wind moving through trees, or the feel of the green moss beside the forest brook. These things only appear to have lost meaning because we have come to think of them as abstractions, as mere information or symbols, rather than in four dimensions that flow within and through us. The second chapter in Ray Bradbury's "Dandelion Wine" captures this well.
Take your pen and notebook. Experiment with and appreciate incremental change to habits. Forgive yourself and others.
Until you discover a greater purpose, then your greater purpose IS that process of searching and assimilating...your life already means more immediately the moment you take the decision to get serious about it in this way. And by the way, software engineering is a powerful craft. You can address almost any purpose through it.
Listen for these long range signals, and in the end, you'll feel truly satisfied in proportion to your creative generosity to the world.
As I have understood, "Black Hole" is something of a misnomer, as the singularity is in fact an intensely compact ball of matter/energy radiating x rays, etc. Matter releases energy as light in various wavelengths, including x, gamma, etc, but once inside the heart of the "hole" it is unable to emit ANYTHING. The net effect, however, is a surrounding veil of electromagnetic spectral emissions. Matter/energy can't escape once inside, but on the way in it puts on a hell of a show.
I mean, come on, this product is hyper-dork. The implementation would be fine as an accessory handheld app or something...but the facial strap-on, like Bono or Madonna concert appendages is ludicrous to propose.
Wait...maybe it was intentional post-post-post-modern comedy?
For the programmers who wish to write, they and the ones who come after them should write more like Hemingway, because then all the writing that comes will come in a such a way that it is always written especially well, and all the ways in which people could ever have written will seem even more like the things they would have written if they had written them well and simply, in true and clear and simple sentences that never had any particularly unncessary words, and no special use of irony the sense that Hemingway himself or others that wished to sound like him might have used had they cared about such things.
Experiment with reducing stimulation. Learn mindfulness meditation, which is proven to lessen anxiety. Take some walks in the mountains or nature. Climb trees. I remember when I recently re-discovered pleasure in the simplest things, like the sound of wind moving through trees, or the feel of the green moss beside the forest brook. These things only appear to have lost meaning because we have come to think of them as abstractions, as mere information or symbols, rather than in four dimensions that flow within and through us. The second chapter in Ray Bradbury's "Dandelion Wine" captures this well.
Take your pen and notebook. Experiment with and appreciate incremental change to habits. Forgive yourself and others.
Until you discover a greater purpose, then your greater purpose IS that process of searching and assimilating...your life already means more immediately the moment you take the decision to get serious about it in this way. And by the way, software engineering is a powerful craft. You can address almost any purpose through it.
Listen for these long range signals, and in the end, you'll feel truly satisfied in proportion to your creative generosity to the world.
All the best.