communication is a 2 way process. Languages are just a tool. One might be proficient in one language but it may still not be the best tool for reaching a wider audience
lol at people telling you to find help/counselling as if the problem was inside you. You are just a modern late stage capitalism slave, its normal you don't like it and want to escape. It sucks. I can only tell you what I did: save as much as possible in IT while learning to invest, then move to a cheap country with 0% tax on capital gains & dividends