I can relate to your position, especially now due to illness it is becoming harder for me to even get to a normal level of thinking. My observations with this struggle;
I think what you should focus on is making progress for your own sake;
* overall it's about consciously (re)exposing yourself to intellectual inspiration, and making to effort to ingrain it. (meaning, next time around you have more tools to reason and express) *
1) throw out absolutism, completism, perfectionism, focus on 'good enough model / summary' that you repeat or relate to others
2) apply models of repetition as explained in things like 'learning how to learn', and 'the power of habits' (etc) to your reading, processing and decision making. Include reasoning, wisdom, and not just knowledge.
3) takeaways from any source can be on topic, form, style etc. You can learn a way of phrasing from one context that helps you convey your argument in another. (have fun with it)
4) reflect on experiences where you were in peak form. Your goal is to get to this more often, en recognize the path.
5) Try to make a manifesto or main collection of powerful ideas that should guide you. you can alter it along the way, strengthen it with references etc. just make sure you do the work of revisiting and culling. This is your externalized intellectual memory.
- bonus: take your pick of philosophical, spiritual, psychological texts and find some golden nuggets about how to appreciate yourself and deal with our sometimes negative instincts.
I think what you should focus on is making progress for your own sake; * overall it's about consciously (re)exposing yourself to intellectual inspiration, and making to effort to ingrain it. (meaning, next time around you have more tools to reason and express) *
1) throw out absolutism, completism, perfectionism, focus on 'good enough model / summary' that you repeat or relate to others
2) apply models of repetition as explained in things like 'learning how to learn', and 'the power of habits' (etc) to your reading, processing and decision making. Include reasoning, wisdom, and not just knowledge.
3) takeaways from any source can be on topic, form, style etc. You can learn a way of phrasing from one context that helps you convey your argument in another. (have fun with it)
4) reflect on experiences where you were in peak form. Your goal is to get to this more often, en recognize the path.
5) Try to make a manifesto or main collection of powerful ideas that should guide you. you can alter it along the way, strengthen it with references etc. just make sure you do the work of revisiting and culling. This is your externalized intellectual memory.
- bonus: take your pick of philosophical, spiritual, psychological texts and find some golden nuggets about how to appreciate yourself and deal with our sometimes negative instincts.