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This article [1] by Christina H I read on Cracked some time ago saved my life when I was about to off myself due to severe depression--I hope it can somewhat be of help to you and anyone here who's also currently at the crossroad. (EDIT: the comments are also great read)
The gist of this article ("do whatever you wanted to do and accomplish it in the most dedicated way as if you won't be alive by tomorrow") has become my life motto ever since my brush with death in a car accident three years ago.
It will also always remind me of the protagonist in Akira Kurosawa's Ikiru (1952) and his determination to realize the building of a playground for children before his death by cancer.
[0]: (https://voat.co/)