The Bible. Harold Bloom's "Western Canon", Knausgaard's "Min Kamp", "The World According to Garp", Robertson Davies Deptford Triology, "Anna Karenina", "Consilience of Knowledge", "House of Leaves" "The Apprenticeship of Duddy Kravitz" All these books messed me up to varying degrees.
I want to add to my list, being in a healthy relationship. Dejaculation is pretty hard on the self, avoid masturbation. Semen holds a lot of important nutrients, specifically zinc that the brain uses.
I think it is energy? I live in Canada and our middle class has the highest income in the world but we also use the most energy per capita. That's the simplest, other than entropy, life is about reducing entropy, richer people spend more money on insurance. Civilization tries to reduce surprises for its citizens.
I've got a safaribooks online account, and found "Real World Functional Programming with examples in F# and C#" the most useful of the f# books I've read. The author has a blog, http://tomasp.net/ But I got something out of all of the books.