Hey man, love the chess analogy. Hope you truly are getting off the cigarettes soon and ready to channel that new found money and energy into your success.
A dark and lonely place indeed. I have this idea I've been working on, but I can't decide whether it's a complete waste of time or something that could really take off.
For example, this morning I didn't want to get out of bed because I had had no motivation and couldn't see the idea going anywhere. I need to fail quickly and cut my losses I say to myself.
Finally I get up (cats are hungry) look at the website and felt a sudden rush of hope and inspiration. It all made sense again. I spent the entire day today working on it.
Unfortunately, the feeling of hopelessness is back again. I feel like I should've spent my time doing something else. Anything else.
I've never been so schizophrenic about an idea in my life. Hope me!