It's the opposite for me. I don't use bash.exe on my Windows machine and it is the first match when I type "bash". "Git Bash" is the second best match. I have no other results. Windows 10 Home Edition 10.0.19045.
Looking forward to my business trip to Portland in a few weeks... The place where I am going is right in the middle of the big red blob, when the "Assault" is selected. Is it really that bad?
You're witnessing the contributions of perhaps a thousand people here on HN, but keep in mind there are millions of silent lurkers who feel exactly as you do. You are not mediocre; you are simply not the best.
I got slower and can't compete with younger players while playing action or even RTS. The other day I decided to give AoE2 a go and was quickly obliterated (and yelled at) by the online competitors.
I have also developed a certain sense for patterns and game logics quickly become repetitive and boring.
Thirties is the age when I actually stopped being a child and started showing signs of maturity. You're still young although it might not feel like this to you. Do not despair, that's the last thing you should do.