It goes beyond "feeling". Without adequate understanding, you can't penetrate further and move the science forward. Calculations alone are simply not enough.
As the philosopher of science Paul Feyrabend wrote and made the convincing case in his book Against Method:
"Science is an essentially anarchic enterprise: theoretical anarchism is more humanitarian and more likely to encourage progress than its law-and-order alternatives."
"The consistency condition which demands that new hypotheses agree with accepted theories is unreasonable because it preserves the older theory, and not the better theory."
"Science is neither a single tradition, nor the best tradition there is, except for people who have become accustomed to its presence, its benefits and its disadvantages. In a democracy, it should be separated from the state just as churches are now separated from the state."
Good documentary on Iter's claims by investigative journalist, Steve Krivit. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xnikAFWDhNw Shows that the public claims are not just an exaggeration but outright fraud for the purpose of getting more funding. It's one thing to say that the purpose is experimental research, it's another entirely to claim that it will produce net energy, which is not backed any evidence or even a reasonable scientific analysis. There's a long history of fraud in fusion research, it's really important the public is well educated on the history here.
There's a long history of fraud and misleading / sensational claims made my companies in the fusion space. The industry is nowhere near break-even (total energy into system == total energy out). ITER is a great example today. This is covered well with in-depth research by journalist Steven B. Krivit. He's put together a documentary exposing ITER's many false and dubious claims that I recommend watching: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xnikAFWDhNw&t=8s
Of course these charts are only a starting point of inquiry. Several scholars, philosophers and intellectuals have both predicted such trends and provided rigorous intellectual analysis of their underlying causes.
"All truth passes through three stages: First, it is ridiculed. Second, it is violently opposed. Third, it is accepted as self-evident." - Arthur Schopenhauer
We are currently in the second stage for Bitcoin. Based on the comments here, in social media and from news outlets, seems more time is needed before its better understood and appreciated broadly.
I and many others continue to believe a sound money settlement layer technology divorced from arbitrary government intervention is of enormous value to society. One need only look at wtfhappenedin1971.com to understand why. But until then, narratives that cherrypick data and paint Bitcoin in a negative light will continue to dominate.
Patience. HODL. And continue to hope for a better world on the other side of all of this.
The term competence seems to be throwing people off, which I can understand but I think the point here is very insightful. It's important to separate those with a hero complex from those that are more morally sincere. Greater moral sincerity means you're more concerned with solving the problem than being the one to solve the problem. It's not about you, it's about the problem and seeing it solved. I think this is an especially relevant point in today's culture.
Minor point, which always frustrates me when people say it. "proven through scientifical consensus". Nothing in the history of science has ever been "proven" by consensus. We get proof when observation matches theoretical prediction.
Thinking in Systems by Donella Meadows. I used to think of the world mostly in terms of dramatic events, heroes and villains. I now mostly see systems and incentives, patterns and trends.
I like the concept. It's code commenting and analysis that's out of the way. There are many ways to look at and digest a piece of code. This is very helpful for learning.
I love it. You acknowledge what others do and are fully aware of the culture. Yet, you decide to go your own path. I really admire this way of thinking. Don't just follow the crowd. I think its crucial, especially in these times, to not just give in to herd mentality. Challenge everything, especially when 'everyone' is doing it.
A commenter here brings up a great point though. As long as you are doing this because you think it will be better for you and not because of any fears you might have, I personally think you're on the right track and will find success and happiness.